Frustration

I feel stuck.

The chasm between what I want to be doing and what I can do is so big right now, I can't even see the other side. It's stupid, but it's making me feel desperate. I hate stagnating, but worse than that, I hate moving backwards and that's what this feels like.

I can't power through this. If I try that, I'm going to get more injured and then the healing will take even longer. It's been four days and this is how crazy I'm getting. I need another ten before I can even try walking any distance, much less running. Squatting and dead-lifting are out, possibly for a couple of months. I need to take the long view and realize that a few months is nothing compared to twenty years or more, but I can't. All I can think is that I'm stuck.

Yes, I'm whining. Yes, there are people out there who are in far worse shape than me. Yes, I'm still healthier and stronger than 85% of the people I know. However, when I'm sitting here thinking about how far I've come and how far I have yet to go, knowing I can't progress kills me. It feels like I'm being punished for trying to be better.

I'll get through this. I need to trust the process. When I come out on the other side, I'll be stronger.

Blah, blah, blah. Empty promises. I just want to do what I want to do.