New Year's Resolutions Revisited

The first three months of the year are gone, more or less, so it's a good time to think about my resolutions and how they're going.

I'm happy to say that, for a change, I'm right on track. In fact, I think I'm going to blow right past my weightlifting goals, no problem. If I stay on schedule, I'll run 30 minutes straight for the first time the week of Christmas, so that goal will be met also.

On the other hand, that resolution I made about not wanting to lose weight because I'm done with that battle? That one's not going so well.

The unfortunate truth is that if I want to reach my weightlifting and running goals, I'm going to have to cut weight. My knees are not going to tolerate longer and longer bouts of running at my current weight for very long before they really start hurting. They're not going to tolerate a 100% body weight squat or deadlift for long either if I have to move my current body weight along with the weight on my back or in my hands.

So, we're back to that shit again. Ugh. I'm not happy about it, but my motivation is different this time. Now I'm not thinking about how I look or what other people think of how I look, I'm thinking about not being able to meet my goals if I don't get closer to a "normal" weight for my height.

Being as Monday is also the first of the month, I'm going to start "cutting" then. ("Cutting" sounds cooler and somehow less depressing than "dieting".) The goal is to lose a pound a week until I'm at the high end of normal for my height. I'm hoping I'll have enough muscle by then to make that a good weight for me to carry around the track and to the gym.

So, here we go again. Maybe this time I'll be successful and not spend every day beating myself up because I'm not where I think I should be. Maybe.