Tired

I'm tired.

Not just physically, but mentally. The older I get, the more tired I get. Being physically tired is one thing. You can rest or sleep or eat and feel better. You might hurt more or move slower but that's all. Being mentally tired, on the other hand, is a bigger challenge. Not only are you less able to react to life as it explodes in your face, but your filter starts shutting down. When I'm mentally tired, I say the first thing or take the first action that comes to my mind instead of thinking it through. So, if you do something dumb or irritating, you're as likely to meet my middle finger as anything else. If you say something stupid, I'm going to let you know just how stupid you are. When I'm not dragged out, I'll actually take a breath before I speak and choose my words relatively carefully.

I'm not sure what to do to get "un-tired". I don't have children. I'm only working one job. And yet, everyday I feel like I don't have enough time to do all the things I need to do, much less the things I want to. I don't understand how my days suddenly got so short. A month or two ago, I didn't feel like this.

I think it's because I'm tired.