New Year's Revolution

I have been gaining and losing the same fifteen pounds for the last two years. It's frustrating because I'll do OK for a while and then I balloon back up again. I had hoped to be at my goal weight by the end of this year, but today I weigh just about the same as I did in January 2010

I've had it.

My resolutions for 2013 revolve around getting stronger and increasing stamina. No weight loss goals at all. I won't gain weight, but I'm not going to try to lose any either. Whatever I weigh tomorrow morning is what I weigh and I'm done. I am absolutely changing my focus and I'm not turning back.

I'm tired of being frustrated and slamming my head against a wall all the time. I'm tired of being mad at myself and beating myself up. This year instead of making myself miserable because I don't weigh what I'm "supposed to", I'm setting strength and endurance goals and am working on meeting them.

So, I did some research and worked out some goals for myself for the standard lifts in the gym and I've already been working on my running goal since October, so it's just a continuation. Anyway, here's the list:

My one rep max on the following lifts will be:
Deadlift 100% bodyweight
Squat 100% bodyweight
Bench 33% bodyweight
Overhead press 20% bodyweight

My reps for the following bodyweight exercises will be:
Push-ups (full) 10
Dips (full) 3
Pull-ups (dead hang) 1

I will be able to run for a full 30 minutes without stopping.

I will not gain weight.

I'll test everything during the last two weeks of December 2013. Wish me strength and happiness. Luck doesn't have a damn thing to do with it.